What if I Didn’t Care?

joegergen's avatarOnce More Unto the Change

passion1What if I didn’t care? 

Seems like an odd thought to begin with. Yet the other day while researching a subject I thought, What if I didn’t care? Would I be researching this subject? Would I write this blog? Would I continue to explore new ideas?

I suspect I wouldn’t continue these activities but I had a hard time imagining the larger effect of not caring. What would that be like? You see, this caring is a good feeling and certainly a handy tool. Drives me to do a good job. I like to be around other people who care as well. Not necessarily what I care about but that care about something.

Since I couldn’t imagine not caring I took another step forward and asked another question that seemed more useful. Why do I care? And perhaps then in understanding why I could take another step and ask  how…

View original post 330 more words

Posted in Freedom, Personality | Tagged , , , | Leave a comment

The Virtues of Digging into the Unknown

the darkLike a curious child who must ask his mother
To let him go into the world, you must give
Yourself permission to go into the dark.

Do not waver, do not wait for
Your eyes will acclimate to the dark.
Once invisible, doorways appear
Each one a darkness unto its own.
You can walk in.
You can walk on.
You can see and you can choose.
You are free to come and go.

The knowledge you find in the Unknown is
Yours to keep, rarely copyrighted or acknowledged,
A sweet reward for stepping in, and while
Decidedly not free, yours to use.

Yet the ever procreating fears that
Dance and Sing in your mind work
Hard to hide the Virtues of
Digging into the Unknown.
They have seen and they have known.
They guard their treasure jealously.

In the dark no one sees. No one knows
You are wandering through the maze.
Your obscurity is your weapon as you
Venture into the dark, sending your
Fears backpedaling into the shadows,
Your illumination exposes them as
Tricks of the light, of the night.
Because you too have seen, have known.
You have found the virtues in the dark.

Posted in Freedom, poetry | Tagged , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Finding an “Ism” that I can Live For

purist1I guess I’m all obsessed with “isms” recently.  Just got done going off about perfectionism.  And yesterday I was thinking about purism. You don’t hear much about Purists now days though. When I was younger I was always hearing people say “I’m a purist.”  Maybe it’s a youthful notion. A champion of tradition and the past. Seems romantic, perhaps. I suppose some people forget to get over it.

I always wondered if it I was a reaction to the rapid influx of knowledge that was perpetually bombarding the young as they went out into the world. Becoming a purist was a way to control, filter or exclude overwhelming amounts of conflicting information. Perhaps the world is changing so fast nowadays that to remain a purist and remain functional are incompatible.

Don’t get me wrong. I’m quite happy for the power of purism to have diminished, which is not to say that we don’t need archivists and historians to remember what was. We do. But purism to me for anyone who had passed beyond college years always smelled of absolutism and significant discomfort with the notion of change. Change is life. Life is change.

But if purism is diminished, then what has taken its place? The need to make one self distinct via proclamations is a void that will be filled.

I thought maybe snobbery had taken its place. But snobbery, the shallow attempt to elevate oneself through rather arbitrary beliefs or behaviors, has been with us for a long time and I haven’t noticed any large resurgence.

Then I thought maybe hipsterism, snobberies poor relation. But then I thought no. A purist would proudly proclaim they are purist. A hipster works hard to disassociate from being hipster (Here is an older but lovely dissection of that hipster attitude: The Sad Science of Hipsterism.

Then I thought perfectionism. And again no. Perfectionism is certainly a bane on our society. (See my rant on that here: Expectations: Perfectionism’s Evil Child. But perfectionist though they may proclaim the title, often enough know it’s neurotic, (which still somehow doesn’t stop them from foisting it upon the rest of us).

Maybe it’s Extremists. They’re passionate. They’re kind of snobby. Somewhat absolutist in their all-or-nothing attitude. Climbing the biggest mountains, snowboarding down an 8,000 foot slope, running triple-ultra marathons. Go big or go home. They shout the word without saying it.

Here’s a good anthem for the Extremist: Why You Should Stop Hacking Your Life. Pretty good argument to follow your passion. But then goes too far for me in that again you need to be all in and be extremely obsessive or obsessively extreme.

I love the passion for life part of the mantra. I want people to be passionate, throw off the shackles of their Mehness (I talk more about that here: Talking about Meh Generation). Though most of it has to do with either physical thrill seeking or total obsessiveness, neither of which are in my nature so my passion seems dull compared to the extremists. Everyone has a different threshold of arousal. Some need more stimulation than others. This is not a good or a bad condition. It just is.

Extremist’s idea of stimulation is climbing a rock face. Mine is thinking a radical thought. I have passion. It’s just manifested in a different way. “I get my kicks above the waistline, sunshine” as they like to say. Which isn’t to say Extremists aren’t intellectual. I just wanted to use that line.

Why can’t we have Passionism: a way to be passionate about something without being extreme. I can get into that.

So maybe Extremism is the new Purism. Maybe it’s not. I don’t know. I know I have the same basic reaction to both so maybe that at least puts them in the same bucket. If the Extremists get annoyed with me maybe we have a winner. So go out and explore your passion, however you want to.

Posted in Freedom, Personality | Tagged , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Musings on Sand Bathing

sparrow1Twenty Little Sparrows Bathing in the Sand
No one to call them home
No one marking time
They flutter and rest
Flutter and rest until
I approach and disturb the sunless
Bathing with a schedule and a purpose
They cannot understand.

Posted in poetry | Tagged , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Musings on Crumbs

crumbsCrumbs on the table.
I see them there but do not care.
A little dirt is no deterrent,
Creates no desire to turn away.
The world’s too clean by far.
Antiseptic and bare
Are not the ways of Nature.
Man-made are the attitudes
Of pristinity and cleanliness.

Sterile environments lead to
Sterile thoughts. Where is the
Debris that will create life’s
Compost if you keep sweeping
It out the door?  Where is the
Compost  that will host life’s scattered
Thought seeds? Where is the diversity of
Blooming ideas that seek cross pollination?

Where has all the soil gone that
Nourishes my soul?

Posted in Freedom, poetry | Tagged , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Musings in the Dark

firefly2There is a certain comfort in walking
Purposely into the darkness.
You can’t see anything in there
But it can’t see you either.
You can see out. Those left
Behind cannot see in.

In the darkness fireflies play,
Flashing in synch with the
Inspirations of your fellow
Travelers, filling the darkness with
Light one burst at a time.

The outsiders see the fireworks.
The outsiders imagine grave dangers
Hidden in the darkness, unaware that
Each pulsing inspiration is secretly
Changing how they see the world.

Posted in poetry | Tagged , , , , , | 5 Comments

Musings: Good Time to Believe in Reincarnation

water1aThis would be a good time to
Believe in reincarnation because as
You’ll see karma isn’t real.

Give me your future, I said,
I’ll invest it and we’ll prosper
And rejoice together.

But now I have to tell you
The well has gone dry,
Your future evaporated.

You, I fear, must ration your
Water and wait for the rain to
Come again to re-sow your crops.

I must now tend to my
Plentiful stores of water and food.
I Will return with the rains.

Posted in poetry | Tagged , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Expectations: Perfectionism’s Evil Child

measure1cI am the opposite of a perfectionist. That is undoubtedly true.

What am I then? Apparently if you’re not a perfectionist you’re a rebel.  I found this out by searching for antonyms of perfectionism. Here’s a list of some of the antonyms:

Oddity, dissenter, defector, eccentric, fanatic, individualist, loner, maverick, radical, rebel, nonconformist, romantic, unorthodox.

I had no idea that’s what the world thought of me. I like the list because I like to think of myself as a rebel.  But on the other hand I don’t like it because it seems to imply then that perfectionism would be the norm. I don’t know. Maybe it is the norm. But that is so wrong. So misguided. I think I need to find a better word for the opposite of perfectionism. I’ll have to come back to that.

Fellow blogger Mirror of Encounters had a good entry the other day on perfectionism. You should check it out. It got me thinking about Perfectionism’s evil child: Expectations.

You hear the phrase “I have high expectations” or “I have low expectations” quite often. I’m always pausing to ponder when I hear these phrases because I’m always wondering what is the source of the need for these words to be uttered.

My first though was does it matter whether the comment is made about oneself or about another? At first I thought it did matter since in one case the word are being applied to judge oneself and in the other are being applied to judge someone else. But in either case it is about judging based on expectations you’ve determined to be the right ones. So perhaps it lands, like it so often does, in the lap of Ego: the strong belief that your expectations are infallible. Infallible might be a bit strong but it makes a good point.

My second thought was that in uttering “ I have high expectations” you’re letting me know that you’re expectations and standards are high, probably higher than mine, and in some cases higher than even you can expect to achieve. Or in the case of uttering “I have low expectations” you’re letting me know you’ve already passed judgment on yourself or another’s inability to meet said arbitrary expectations, and in effect saying I know these can’t be met but I want you to know that I prescribe to them because this somehow elevates me above you. And so again, we are back to Ego.

OK, it’s getting a little deep in here and I’m in danger of getting lost in my own minefield but I will slog on because I think I’m coming to a point, or a pint, as I originally typed.

So, you can see I’ve very scientifically established that perfectionism and expectations are tied to Ego. So expectations are personal, whether they are of your own creation or established by someone else.

But expectations are not what people think they are. They are not right or wrong. They are not good or bad. They are not high or low. What they are is either in synch with the context to which they are being applied or they are not. Expectations that are so high they can’t possibly be met are pointless. Expectations that are so low they change nothing are useless.

Which means they HAVE to be flexible. Which means they are NOT absolute. Which means they have to evolve. The expectations I start with may not be the ones I end with. They have to be organic living things. They have to be tied to what you’re trying to achieve and where you are in that process.

Organic. That’s the word. That is the opposite of perfectionism.  I am Organic. And if in exercising my organic nature I’m labeled a rebel, then I embrace that.

I will evolve. Will you? I have high expectations for you.

Posted in Freedom, Personality | Tagged , , , , , , , | 15 Comments

Musings on a Friendly Leak

faucet1The faucet has issues.
We both know it.
I look away when she goes
kunk, kunk, kunk.
I don’t like to stare.
She pretends it didn’t happen.
But the water trickling from her hose
Like a fighter’s bloodied nose
Is hard to ignore. I wipe it off.
I go about my business but
Soon I’m back. I pause.
The faucet has issues.
We both know it.

Posted in poetry | Tagged , , , , | 6 Comments

Musing: Turning Glycerin to Dust

glycerin1aThe bottle says Glycerin.
It is not. Unless glycerin turns to
Dust. And while I suppose everything
Can turn to dust in time I hold to my
Intuition that this is not glycerin.

No amount of rubbing the mysterious
Dust into my hands and face will
Bring the luster and softness
Promised. While it may be a secret
Potion, I’ll hold to my lotion.

Shall I disperse it on my calloused
Toes, or sprinkle it on my fiendish
Foes? What evil might it abate
If infused into the white froth of my
Latte, into the coffee of my destiny?

Posted in poetry | Tagged , , , , , , | Leave a comment